Exercise: An Attempt at Haiku


The night smells of rain
but nothing smells sweeter than
the scent of my pain.

07 June 2010

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My Worldwide Moment 09.09.09


My Worldwide Moment 09.09.09 +09GMT 09:09

My Worldwide Moment 09.09.09 +09GMT 09:09

I feel so honored to have been part of this year’s Worldwide Moment. I think one step to global peace would be to cast aside racial, sexual and social discrimination. There is so much space in the world to fill with love, and I don’t get why some people would rather fill it with hate. Bigotry is ignorance. It’s time for people to open up their hearts and their minds, and learn how to live amongst each other without prejudice.

Visit the Worldwilde Moment at http://worldwidemoment.org to view the other photos taken simultaneously from all over the world.

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Wife (2009)


Your hand on my breast
wakes me to the sound of
your sleep. I take delight in
this familiarity: your
warm skin blanketing me
from the coldness of this
space we call ours. I squeeze your
hand against my breast,
waking you to the sound of my

fever. Time quickens with
every bead of sweat and
sigh of breath. You whisper

a lie: “You are
a goddess,” with each thrust that cuts
deeper with every stroke of lust. I fall
into your arms, weak yet

unfulfilled. Time is shortened
by the clock’s jealous whining.
You get off the bed, scrambling
to get dressed.

I try to loosen the knot of your tie,
coaxing you back under the sheets
with me. But you are done
composing yourself: cleverly

clad in a perfectly-tailored suit (I gave you as
a gift): you make decency look so easy
to reclaim.

You slip a silver band
around your finger. A faint light
from the window touches it: the brilliance
blinds me for a moment. You

crouch down to give me
a kiss. You whisper
a confession: “I cannot stay
for dinner.” I light a cigarette
as you walk out the door

in silence. The clock’s jealous whining breaks

my stupor. Acquiescent, I lay
in bed. I try to fake
a smile and whisper
a truth: “I am your goddess;

she is your wife.”

– 09 February 2009
– 3rd installment of my “Wife” series

“She is solid.

As for me, I am a watercolor.
I wash off.”
— from Anne Sexton’s For My Lover Returning to His Wife

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Release


Scarce:
the ideas cavorting inside
the mind; even more deficient
are the echoes of waves surging
against the chest (struggling to break free
from being tightly bound)
to relieve

stomach cramps

do not always induce excretion
or indicate that there’s something to release
other than a gust of gas that’s

nauseating

is the anticipation – poised on the seat
of emptiness: a cigarette dying out
in the interim of musings;
a tabloid severely crumpled – writhing
in constipated anguish to force-unload
secrets that have been rotting

inside the belly

an uproar has been started by all
the swallowed profundities, the souring
is ominous of the looming
defecation that’s worse than birthing in

pain

will draw barren tears
from a stagnant well deepened by faith in

tomorrow

my pen’s ink may finally
explode.

30 January 2009
– final draft of Pagpaparaos’ translation in English
– thinking about submitting it to the Cayman Arts Festival this year, but will have to wait until after the 10th of March before I do so — the competition is only open to entrants who have been living in the Island for a year.
– recently published in UP Quill’s 17th folio, Sitting Amok: Ganito Kami Umibig (This is How We Love)

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Pagpaparaos


Hindi sapat
ang mga ideyang naglalaro sa
isipan at lalong kulang ang
mga alingawngaw ng alimbukay
sa dibdib (na nagpupumiglas
mula sa gasang mahigpit na pinanggapos)
para mairaos

ang panghihilab ng tyan

ay hindi laging may kalalabasan
o naghuhudyat na merong mailuluwal
bukod sa mabahong singaw ng hangin na

nakaduduwal

ang paghihintay sa trono
ng kawalan: nauupos na yosing
ilang minuto nang nagmumunimuni; at
tabloid na gusot-gusot at namimilipit
sa kaiire upang mailabas ang
talinhagang matagal nang nabubulok

sa sikmura

nagsisimula nang magalburoto ang lahat
ng dunong na nalulon, ang pangangasim
ang magbabadya sa nalalapit na
pagduming daig pa ang panganganak

sa sakit

pilit huhugutin ang mga tuyong luha
na naimbak sa balong pinalalim ng pagsasa-

bukas

baka sumambulat na
ang pluma mula sa ballpen ko.

16 July 2008
first piece in Filipino; current favorite
recently published in UP Quill’s 17th folio, Sitting Amok: Ganito Kami Umibig (This is How We Love)

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Wife (2006)


At least you came home.
On your way in, you asked for dinner and
a kiss. I hesitated,
but lightly brushed my lips
against your cheek, and whispered,
“It’s on the table.”

I won’t be able to re-heat it for you
this time. The microwave is broken.
You’re never around to fix it, and I’ve
never been good at fixing things.

You can throw the dishes in the trash or
just leave
them on the sink.
There’s no water to wash your mess
tonight. The tank has dried up.

I’m off to bed. By the way,
you should take something home for dinner
tomorrow. I’ll be out shopping.

2006
you can find this in UP Quill’s literary folio, “Sitting Amok” — 15th volume.

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Wife (2004)


Once again the rooster’s crows beat you
to the gate. I watch you from a corner as you wobble
towards this house
I maintain to be home for your
returns: three-course meals; hot baths; a
warm bed you’ve avoided since you’ve
discovered the convenience of the sofa.

You reek of alcohol and cheap perfume
from another visit to the red light district.
I stand patiently at my corner,
               waiting. My shadow dances
under the flickering
light in your presence. (Do you even notice?)
You concentrate on your stagger and
as you near my corner, you stop

to lean soft and warm against my
stiff cold body. And
                            I feel,
again, how it is to glow
like the vibrant strobes in your red city of lights.
Your breath reminds me of ripe chicos, of
an appealing bitter sweetness.
I move closer to your face.
               But before I could taste the liquor from your
lips, you open your mouth, let me taste
the leftovers of what you had for
dinner, instead.

2004
this is included in UP Quill’s literary folio, “Sitting Amok” — 13th volume — under the pseudonym, “Eva de Matta”.

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